just take me for granted

Before you let me fall,
Kill me so I don't feel it at all
And Push my body up against the wall
And pick your poison
'Cause everything feels wrong
And I don't know where I belong

Take me for granted
Make me feel used
Leave me in pieces
Misery is company
Cuz I know that it's real
I've learned to love the pain
'Cause that's the only way that I know how to feel

Maybe it's a phase
Maybe I'll break out of it someday
Maybe this is just my twisted fate
I always feel like everything is wrong
And I don't know where I belong

Take me for granted
Make me feel used
Leave me in pieces
Misery is company
'Cause I know that it's real
I've learned to love the pain
'Cause that's the only way that I know how

todays feeling

The fact that she had to let her go, 

it teared her up inside,

she had tried so hard to put it all togheter,

now everything was falling apart.

With no one to blame,

she blame it all on her self.

Like it was her fault,

that they didn't get chance to catch up 

all the memorize who was made before.

She tried to hide it all inside,

wouldn't face the truth, be brave, be brave.

the tears she hold back inside,

even if it hurts, be brave, be brave.

The tears was in her eyes now,

she had to be strong,

told her self it was all empty,

but then it proved she was wrong.

Her smile was slowly fading,

as she wiped away her tears,

the truth she was facing, 

was worse that she had thought.

She tried to hide it all inside,

wouldn't face the truth, be brave, be brave.

the tears she hold back inside,

even if it hurts, be brave, be brave.

the acting was over,

she thought she was strong,

the tears wouldn't stop,

when she realized her friend was gone.

I don't want you to see my like this. I'm stronger than this.

you are my guiding soul, all I need is you

and it was like not could ever come between us, ever again.

we are like brother and sister, you and I.
people can separate us if they really want to, but you know deeply in your heart that I will always,

and hear the word ALWAYS, stay with you and support  you.

the thing is my friend, there doesn't go a day when I'm not thinking of things we did together.

the memories will stay in my heart forever.

So yes we fight, we fight about the most silliest stuff, and yes I can go days without talking to you, 

but that's just because I know that in the end it will all work out.

this time I wasn't sure, I did not think that we would actually figured things out,

but we did, even if it took almost 2months. 

That just prove the fact that no matter what will always find away to solve or problems,

cause we do really need each other.

So you should know that "brother", no matter what I'm always here for you,

it doesn't matter what your problem is, I'm always here.

so keep that in mind all the time, you can tell me everything.

\\yes I do really love you, with all of my heart\\

When you love, you get hurt. When you get hurt, you hate. When you hate, you try to forget, When you try to forget, you start missing. When you start missing, You fall in Love Again ♥

I was in love, and got hurt. I started to hate the boy I used to love, and I tried so hard to get him out of my head. He slipped away and I started to miss, but then this other boy came along and I forgot how complicated love is. So I fell in love all over again, and the hate part has not come yet, but when that day come I tell you about it. That's a promise.

Good times are like pizza. You savor the moments one by one and then your realize soon after that it’s all gone.

Right now all I wanna do is sleep, cause as soon as I close my eyes I feel your arms around me.

and right no that's all I really need, cause every time I feel you close, I know what happiness are.

You put a smile on my face with just saying some simple words, 

you make me laugh without even open you're mouth.

I don't know what it is, but there is clearly something special about you.

cause every moment with you are the best moments in my life.

Happiness are wherever you are.

have you ever felt like nothing really matters, that whatever you do it will not change anything.

Like you could just go and drown yourself, cause it doesn't really matters to anyone anyway.

It's the thought you get in the morning when you wake up feeling alone and insecure, and this follows you all day, and get's even worse when you fall to sleep. It's not that "i have no friends" lonely feeling. It's more that "there isn't one special boy in this world who loves me, and only me" lonely feeling. Every time you see your self in the mirror, even if you just walk by, you feel ashamed. You feel like that face is not worth a shit, like you are the ugliest person in the world.

I keep writing and opening up, to everyone. But when I tell something straight to a person they really means something to me, they are special in my eyes.I'm sorry for being a mess, and I'm sorry for not telling anyone about it.I'm do not thinking that it best if I hold it all inside, but right now I don't wanna talk about it. Next week will be a mess, I guarantee that. But you my friends, you know how strong I can be right?! One of you will be leaving, and that really sucks. He will be leaving the week after that, but the different is that he'll come back, and you my friend you won't, at least not for now. I'm in love with him, you all know that, and to be honest that really sucks. It's really hard to know that there is another girl in his arms right now. So that's all I wanted to say, for now. I do have problems with telling straight to all of my friends what I really feel right now, so I tried to tell it here. I love you, and you, and you! <3 and I'm really sorry for everything. 

you always know what to say, and when to say it. You stay with me all the time, when ever I need you. Music, will you be my boyfriend?

Mine - Taylor swift

One shot - JSL

The only exception - Paramore

Impossible - Shontelle

Stay - Miley Cyrus

Save your heart - Mayday Parade

DO NOT LET ANYTHING THEY SAY GO TO YOUR HEAD

............l............o.............s.............t.................

waking up, lost and insecure.
Today I don't wanna to do anything
drill my head into the pillow
fall to sleep.


Waking up, tears filled my eyes,
the second best have to get out of bed.
putting my cloths on,
one look in the mirror feeling like nothing.


Looking in the mirror  eyes filled with tears,
have you ever felt like you're nothing,
that's what I feel like right now,
it doesn't matter what I do.


this is me, every morning,
this is the truth.
I don't know if you care.
I don't care if you don't care.
but here is the truth.

If you love someone put their name in a circle, not a heart, because hearts can be broken but circles go on forever!

I put your name in a circle, sitting on the floor in my room. 

The room feels empty, but still it looks like a mess.

Looking like a mess I sit on the the floor in my room who also look like a mess,

it's not without a reason we're staying together.

I think about what happened yesterday,

it's really silly thoughts, like why I did not kiss you.

Kissing you gives me one of the greatest feeling in the world.

but this feeling doesn't really matter when she's around.

She call and text you all the time, and you know that.

You said she could be a pain in the ass sometimes.

If she's such a pain in the ass, why don't you just dump her.

There must be a reason why you always smiling around me.

You make me smile, and you somehow know how to make me laugh.

The smile on your face when you're  around me,

don't say it doesn't mean anything.

There must be a reason for everything.

I put your name in a circle sitting on the floor in my room. 

The room feels empty, but still it looks like a mess.

Looking like a mess I sit on the the floor in my room who also look like a mess,

it's not without a reason we're staying together.