The trouble with jogging is that...

....by the time you realize you're not in shape for it, it's too far to walk back.

sometimes the words don't come out of my mouth - that's why I write it all down.

I'm sorry, arguing just isn't my thing - it's just not worth the pain

I don't know what happened, things probably just changed.
The times we talk, ending up fighting, I don't want that.
You have all it takes, just say the right words..that simple.
It's not that simple, because in some way, you never say the right words anymore.
You're leaving, then I'm leaving and in the end..
it feels like this summer we're slipping apart.

I guess that's how it ends..even though I don't want it this way.

are you worth it ?!

Give me a reason to stay, and I promise to not walk away. 

but right now, no reason to stay, is a good reason to go.

The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away, he waited his
entire life for it to come back to him. 

It was more than just a comet because of what it brought to his life: direction, beauty, meaning. There are many who couldn't understand, and sometimes he walked among them. But even in his darkest hours, he knew in his heart that someday it would return to him, and his world would be whole again... And his belief in God and love and art would be re-awakened in his heart

Just tell me that, I'm you're comet, and you never have to wait for me again.

what kind of day am I having ?!

A friend will know by the sound of your voice, by the look on your face, by the way you walk, by the things you do, exactly what kind of day you’re having.

what happen to

well, my girl's in the next room, sometimes I wish she was you!
I guess we never really moved on. I guess you moved on..
Lips of an angel..

Just call me

I Hate the way we end this night. I can't sleep even if i try! Holding ny phone, crossing my fingers. Can't you just call me like you used to..

I don’t know if you know by now
But I kinda hope that you don’t
‘Cause you’re already spoken for
And I’d be a fool to ask for your love.

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now.


-sorry, my friend. It's the hurt I can't handle. 

And you're the only one who can feel your own pain.

Nobody really ever knows how much anybody else is hurting. 
We could be standing next to somebody who is completely broken. 
And we wouldn't even know.


link : http://vanillachapsticks.blogspot.com/2010/04/and-youre-only-one-who-can-feel-your.html

when I can't put it in words, the pictures does.

Maybe I should put words on what I feel.
But trust me, I can't.
I took on the brave face today, and smiled.
Even though everyone cried, I just smiled.
I don't know what hold me back,
first I thought it was the emptiness,
that there was no more tears to cry.
I realised now that it's not empty,
and I can't stop crying.
So I guess that's what stopped me crying in front of so many.,
The fear of not being able to stop,
The fear of looking like a mess.

That's the thing,
I don't want people to think that:
I'm a mess, even though I'm.
That I can't handle anything, even though I can't all the time.
I'm weak, even though sometimes I'm.

Cause what I see is that, tears are weakness,
and when you cry, all of the times you have tried to be strong,
just fades away. ..

I know thats not true, but I can't make my self see that.
The person who used to tell me that, are having enough with his problems.
So I guess these tears I cry right now, are because of what I feel.
Being afraid of losing my bestfriend.
Afraid that he will slowly slip away.
That one day I wake up and He won't even talk to me.

Why I'm afraid of this are because there days,
he can't even look me in the eye,
and he dosen't know that it hurts.
There are times we don't talk,
and he dosen't know that his missed.

So what I feel right now, I can't tell by words. Thats the reason why I love pictures.
 

I will learn to be strong enough.

I don't know if I can make it out of bed today.

Just putting my feet on the floor hurts.

The tears won't stop,  I just feeling like a fool.

I know I'm strong, but this is more than I can take.

If you thought that I could handle this, you were wrong.

Maybe I'm not showing it, but it hurts.

I know I was suposed to be there, every single second.

And I'm sorry, for letting you down last night.

If I could go back in time, I wouldn't go out the door last night.

and maybe I could have made it out of my bed today.

I know I'm strong, but this is more than I can take.

If you thought that I could handle this, you were wrong.

Maybe I'm not showing it, but it hurts.

You should know I'm hurt.

I know I have to, put on the brave face. 

Smile among the others happy faces. 

But there will be a face missing, yours.

I know I'm strong, but this is more than I can take.

If you thought that I could handle this, you were wrong.

Maybe I'm not showing it, but it hurts.

I'm not strong enough to deal with this, don't expect to much of me.

Don't get me wrong. 

I will always suport you, and try my best.

This friendship, I'm not giving it up.

I know I'm strong, but this is more than I can take.

If you thought that I could handle this, you were wrong.

Maybe I'm not showing it, but it hurts.

I'm not going away, even if you don't want me here.

I know standing by your side might be hurtful.

But I do it anyway, I will learn to be strong enough.

just like that

we all saw our life from a new position. 

we always took you seriously, 

just never thought it would happen.

that there would always be a soul, watching over you. 

If you leave this time, we can't go on without you. 

Cause just a day without you seems so worthless.

The place you fill in our hearts are the biggest one.

If you leave this time, we can't go on without you.

The life you have, ain't easy. 

Places you live, the thoughts you have.

But just remember, we'll always be right here.

We're promising that we're not going anywhere.

If you leave this time, we can't go on without you. 

Cause just a day without you seems so worthless.

The place you fill in our hearts are the biggest one.

If you leave this time, we can't go on without you.

That empty chair, that missing voice, 

this just ain't right, we wished you where here.

We're not stopping the thoughts about you,

cause in our hearts you'll always be.

If you leave this time, we can't go on without you. 

Cause just a day without you seems so worthless.

The place you fill in our hearts are the biggest one.

If you leave this time, we can't go on without you.

WE LOVE YOU, THAT'S THE TRUTH.

I am woman, hear me roar

In numbers too big to ignore

And I know too much to go back and pretend

'cause I've heard it all before

And I've been down there on the floor

No one's ever gonna keep me down again

Oh yes I am wise

But it's wisdom born of pain

Yes, I've paid the price

But look how much I gained

If I have to, I can do anything

I am strong (strong)

I am invincible (invincible)

I am woman

You can bend but never break me

'cause it only serves to make me

More determined to achieve my final goal

And I come back even stronger

Not a novice any longer

'cause you've deepened the conviction in my soul.

I'll wait for you forever, and if you're not mine then, we'll always have the days after forever

I'll be awake all night, just to see if you text me. 

Don't care if I'm not waking up tomorrow.

I'll be here all night, just call if you need me.

.....

I'm sorry, for standing by your side.
should have know that this would be the end
Maybe I have for giving you to much,
didn't mean to believe when you lied. 

I should have let you go
don't deserve something like you.
what I feel when you tell me that shit,,
I wish you could know. 

but when it comes to a end,
I just miss you
it's so much to handle
no need to pretend..

i love you

You said somethings but i know they was said in anger,
and i dont wanna be mad at you anylonger,
so i am drawing up an line now, baby.
And I have tried to be stronger, without you here,
but i got memories i cant erase, i keep on picturing your face, so,
i stop pretending that im fine now, baby.

photo; me.

Living is a lie.

I just sit here, waiting for you.

It doesn't hurt that I haven't talk to you this day.

I don't care if you don't text me first anymore.

It's not you, I'm the crazy one here.

I don't care if lie, I still believe in every word you say. 

It's the trust in you're eyes, 

I always see it. 

Yes, it's alright that you only need me in you're bad days.
No, I don't like you THAT way.
Yes, ofc you where going to say hi. 

No, everything is normal between us
Yes, she will come back to you very soon.

No, I don't mind talking about here.

Yes, just come to me next time you have a problem.


you wouldn't even noticed that these are all just simple lies.
I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE.

Do you want to know how I really feel? then text me, or say hello to me. Cause I'm not coming to you this time, I'm just gonna sit here and wait for you, no that's a lie, I'm going to sleep.
It doesn't help to ignore me you know, I will still be here. 

I wish that you could just opened your eyes, and see what I see.
Cause this ignorance that you do, kills me inside.
That's the truth, I die inside, because of the love I feel.

LIVING IS A LIE

I'm a mess right now.

Out of order, I'm torn up I'm going down

Won't you hold me together I'm pouring out.

I need you, that's how I feel.

I want nothing from you.

When nothing seems to work out, will you be my nothing?
When nothing goes right, will you be my nothing?
When nothing are okay, will you be my nothing?

If nothing last forever,  will you be my nothing? 

It was almost you.

I missed the times that we almost shared

I miss the love that was almost there

I miss the times that we use to kiss

At least in my dreams

Just let me take my time and reminisce

I miss the times that we never had

What happened to us we were almost there

Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had

Never almost had you.

- almost

I'll care about you today, tomorrow and all the days after that, even if you don't want me to.

The hurt he can't handle

overflows to a knife.

He writes on he's arm
want to give up he's life.

But I won't let you suffer,

not on your own.

I'm stuck to you forever,
like a red nose on a clown.

Put me on when you want to be yourself.

Take me of when things are fine.

I know you really care for me, 

and that you will always be mine.

I don't care how you play, 

don't care if it hurt. 

I'm not going away, 

even if you threat me like dirt.

So here I'm stuck with you

don't know what we are

just know I will heal you 

and help you with the scare.

Cause I know that you're broken

and I know you don't see a light.

But I'm you're bestfriend,

and together we'll fight.

So promise me this

that tomorrow never goes away,

that you're not going anywhere

and that you always will stay.

If you do that, 

I'll promise it too.
what do you say my friend,

always me and you? 

MY HERO

He is a survivor. the way he make it trough a day, it’s amazing. He is my bestfriend and the only one who can put a smile on my face on a dark, dark day. I’m not saying he is the best, or better than anyone else, he is just a survivor. He is my hero.

My hero is the person i can look straight in eye, and what I see is amazing. The person doesn’t have to save the whole world, but he or she would do anything for me to make me feel better. The person survives a day, and sometimes I wish I hade the same courage.

My bestfriend is my number one hero. He has been trough a lot, and compare to what he has been trough all my problem seems small. Even though he sometimes is going trough

A tough time, he doesn’t stop to care about other people. All of the thoughts that goes around in his head, he puts a side for a little while just so he can make you smile.  He want the best for you, only the best and nothing else, and he is willing to do anything so you’re happy, that’s why he is my number one hero, because he care.

the letter

I promised I wouldn't open it, and as you know I keep my promise.

I just don't know why it has to be so hard. 

It's hidden, under a tons of pillows. 

Hidden and forgotten.  

Tomorrow I know I have to face it again. 

Not opening it, just watch it. 

Will the feeling still be there?

Will my stomach still hurt?

Will I ever know?

I'd learned that some things are best kept secret.

Dear John!

Happy to lay here

Just happy to be here

I'm happy to know you

Play me a song

Your newest one

Please leave your taste on my tongue.








"I finally understood what true love meant...love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be." 




I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MOVIE TONIGHT.

I HOPE

I hope my smile can distract you

I hope my fists can fight for two

So it never has to show

And you’ll never know

I hope my love can blind you

I hope my arms can bind you

So you’ll never have to see

What we’ve grown to be.

I ran, faster then ever before, but I couldn't run faster than the pain.

And I'd give up forever to touch you 

Cause I know that you feel me somehow 

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be 

And I don't want to go home right now 

And all I can taste is this moment 

And all I can breathe is your life 

Cause sooner or later it's over 

I just don't want to miss you tonight 

And I don't want the world to see me 

Cause I don't think that they'd understand 

When everything's made to be broken 

I just want you to know who I am 

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming 

Or the moment of truth in your lies 

When everything seems like the movies 

Yeah you bleed just to know your alive 

 

good at telling lies

The music is making me growing

The only thing that keeps me awake is me knowing

There's noone here to break me or bring me down

And noone here to hurt me or fool around.

if you knew all the simple lies i told you, I'm pretty sure we wouldn't be friends. 

i like you, but I'm not always fine, everything isn't always okay. 

but I don't suffer, my heart just ache sometimes and i even cry. 

I won't tell you that, cause I know that you got your own problems. 

I just smile, and says : EVERYTHING IS OKAY. 

Did you know that the most common lie in the world is : I'm fine.

I promise

sometimes it might feels like I'm letting you down.
but I promise, I'm not taking any sides.
I'm not feeling, what you feel, and felt.
I promise you, it's not that way.

sometimes you might don't believe me.
cause I know you're not trusting me that much.
but let me promise you one thing :
It will always be you, standing first, always.

I don't wanna see you hurt, you know that.
I don't wanna fight, you know that.
I want you in my life, you know that.

So if you think I'm crossing the line,
please let me know.
If you think I'm going to far,
please let me know.

I promise, I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE
- i'm not going anywhere.
i love you, sis!

Marilyn Monroe

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe

It's often just enough to be with someone. I don't need to touch them. Not even talk. A feeling passes between you both. You're not alone. - Marilyn Monroe 

when it comes to missing you,

I don't have what it takes.

make me fall for you

All you need is to sing a song and play on a guitar 

and I promise I will fall completely for you.

a minute of joy, happiness and everything else.

if you find happiness, don't get unsecured. 
Don't think you don't deserve it.
Just don't waste it.


Cause happiness is worth more than you can Imagen.
It's beautiful, warm and wonderful.
I don't know what makes you happy.
But don't waste it.


It might just last for a second or a minute
but it sure is worth the time.
Soapbubbles makes me smile.
It's a second/minute of joy, happiness and everything else beautiful.

I'm hoping we can make some wishes out of airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes 

In the night sky 

Are like shooting stars 

I could really use a wish right now

why can't you be someone else? it shouldn't been you.

you hold my hand, wanted to kiss me.
the nights run away,
and then next day, you said you miss me.

what was I supposed to do,
falling the wrong way, it shouldn't been you
fly, fly higher than before.
drag me down, need the ground.
things where perfect, but it shouldn't been you.

you told me, this will never go our way.
but already in the game.
won't give up, needed to play.

what was I supposed to do,
falling the wrong way, somebody turn me around.
fly, fly higher than before.
drag me down, need the ground.
things where perfect, but it shouldn't been you.

In love with you, I cross the line
there's no going back
not this time.
but

what was I supposed to do,
falling the wrong way, it shouldn't been you
fly, fly higher than before.
drag me down, need the ground.
things where perfect, but it shouldn't been you.

that's what you want? I do it.

 you let go, so now its my turn. i can accept that, 

but when i find happiness, don't decide you love me.

I don't regret..

I didn't lose my mind it was
Mine to give away
Couldn't stay to watch me cry
You didn't have the time
So I softly slip away...

No regrets / they don't work
No regrets / they only hurt
Sing me a love song
Drop me a line
Suppose it's just a point of view
But they tell me I'm doing fine

I know from the outside
We looked good for eachother
Felt things were going wrong
When you didn't like my mother

I don't want to hate but that's
All you've left me with
A bitter aftertaste and a fantasy of
How we all could live

  

No regrets / they don't work
No regrets / they only hurt 

the notebook

Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Allie: So what?
Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out. 
Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
Allie: It's not that simple.
Noah: What... do... you... want?
Allie: I have to go now.